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My taste buds are changing!

I can still remember a time when I was younger when I absolutely hated the taste of coffee. I would beg the adults around me to try it and once they finally gave in and let me have a taste, I hated it. How strange is that?

You and I both know that coffee is an essential part of daily life in order to be a productive human being.

I started drinking coffee when I was about 16 years old. not as much as I do now, but that is around the time where I actually began to like the taste. Now I enjoy the taste. I genuinely think that the taste of coffee is so delicious!

This was one of the first times I actually noticed it happening. Where I hated something and then loved it so much as I aged.

More recently, I have noticed these changes happening more and more. Within the past few months I decided that I can no longer stand peanut butter. I used to love eating peanut butter so much, like I was that kid that ate peanut butter with a spoon out of the jar. Now I hate it.

I can no longer stand the taste of peanut butter.

I hate the way it makes my throat feel.

I can’t even stand the smell of it any longer.

Also, this has happened to me with chocolate, only different. I still like chocolate so much, but it is so sweet to me now, that having too much hurts my teeth. I have also became partial to dark chocolate. I now LOVE dark chocolate. The darker the better. I find it so funny and weird that I am now veering away from milk chocolate and running toward the dark side. hehe.

I found this so interesting and thought that it was worth talking about (hopefully you think so too), so much so that I looked into it a little bit and found this really interesting article here. Give it a read because I thought that it was interesting.

This entire article was informative and I learned a lot from it but I particularly enjoyed the part where it explained why kids don’t like bitter food and many have a “sweet tooth” and how that changes as they get older. Which is basically what has been happening to me.

Sweet foods are interpreted by the brain as good foods to want to eat because they are high in sugar, thus having more energy which is why kids are gravitated towards sweets. Whereas the brain sees bitter food as a toxin, so when kids eat something bitter they tend to not want to eat it. That is so cool, because that is the body’s way of protecting itself until you grow up and learn what is safe to eat and what isn’t.

This makes so much sense if you really think about it! I think that is so cool. Now it makes sense when kids don’t want to eat their vegetables and would much prefer fruits or something sweeter. It also makes sense why they change over time now too!

Mystery solved!

Have you noticed and changes in your taste buds that seemed strange? Something new you began to like but didn’t before, or something you loved but now hate?

Solo Date Night!

The reason why my blog isn’t as successful as I would like it to be yet is because I don’t post as regularly as I would like. I suck. I can’t stick to a posting schedule to save my life and I procrastinate way too much for my own good. With that being said, I basically end up posting whatever I want whenever I want and that’s okay. As much as I love blogging and I love everyone who reads this at the end of the day this is for me. Anyways, moral of the story is that I’m sorry for not having a particular posting schedule at the moment, but one day I might.


Normally, Friday night is date night for my boyfriend and I. We never really planned it but eventually it just became a thing, but tonight I am solo since he is camping with his family. My best friend, who is also away in Florida having a grand time with her family suggested that I have a night to myself.

So here’s the plan.

It’s currently almost 5 o’clock in the evening and I am so hungry. I am going to go to the store and get something for dinner and maybe even a pint of ice cream and then come home and have a date with Netflix and Sophie’s cuddles (hopefully she’ll be up to it). I have a pretty full weekend coming up so tonight should be nice and relaxing!

Here’s the problem though (which isn’t really a problem) I don’t currently have anything to watch on Netflix since I am currently between shows. I am still currently watching Continuum but I won’t watch that without Joey. So, I need something new to binge tonight! Comment below because I need some suggestions!

Also, I think I want to take this time to get ahead on some other blog posts because I have some ideas in my head!


I think that is is a good thing to spend some time alone and just relax, especially if things have been hectic or are going to be hectic in the future. It gives you a chance to relax and to try not to worry. Even though that can be REALLY hard to do. I have been so anxious lately so hopefully tonight will just be nice and relaxing!

What are some things that you like to do to relax?

I’m a Worrier.

I broke down yesterday.  The whole day was really rough but I knew it was coming for a while now. So much of it has been building up for some time. Months and months of worries and stress and anxiety and life and then it finally happened. In the purest Dane Cook form and it probably went on longer than it should have but I literally could not help it.

I blame anxiety. I hate being anxious and I hate the way it makes me think and feel all the time. The worst part is that I just can’t help it, that’s just how I am. I want to stop worrying when people tell me to “Just relax” or “Everything is going to be fine” or “What could you possibly be worrying about now?”. I want to stop so bad because I know it’s not rational, but I just can’t help it.

What better thing to talk about today than my worries?

  1. Because I think it might be cathartic for me to talk about.
  2. Maybe you guys might relate? Maybe? That, or I’m just a crazy person.

worry

  1. What I am going to do with my life – Sure, I have somewhat of a path in mind but I literally can’t see where I will be a year from now and that scares the hell out of me. I have a degree and I want to continue on, but where? What degree next? What are my goals? Will I even get in? All questions I do not have answers to.  I have never been one of those people who has always know what they want to do, and that’s okay.  But I still think and worry about it on a daily basis.
  2. Money – I feel like I shouldn’t but I do. I hate adulting. Sometimes I feel like my part time job just isn’t enough. On weeks where a bill is due, I can hardly even think about buying anything. It stresses me out man!
  3. Being a burden – I genuinely believe I am a burden to the people around me. It is so hard for me to believe that I am worth other people’s time. That sounds so terrible but it feels true. It is to the point that a lot of the time I hardly even message my friends first because I feel like I am bothering them, but then I don’t hear from them in months. What does that even mean? Are we even friends? I don’t know. I’m sure that they just get busy and that is a part of life and it’s not personal, but that’s the way I think you know?
  4. Being forgotten about – This goes along with the previous one, I worry that my friends will forget about me and move on, I worry I am holding my boyfriend back and he will move on without me. I know it’s not true but something I worry about so much. Also, this goes to a much grander scale. What if something happens and I die? The people in my life will mourn and then years in the future, that’s it. Just someone’s memory. It is important to me to do something worth remembering in life, and I worry whether I’ll be able to do so.
  5. The people around me – I care about other people more than myself most of the time. I care about how they are feeling and if they are okay or not. I am really super empathetic and that might take a toll on me, secretly deep down inside, where no one can see. And I know it’s bad but I do care what people think about me too.

We all have good days and bad, yesterday was bad and today is better. Maybe tomorrow will be great.

I could keep going on and on and but I edited the picture to say 5, so I should stick to that. If you can relate, then that’s great! Let me know in the comments below so we can support each other. 🙂 Also, if you have something to add, you know where to go!

#WeenendCoffeeShare #3

If we were having coffee…

I would be so happy because it has been far too long since I have had coffee, and not out of choice but because we haven’t had any in the house and because I have been trying to be more careful about going out everyday and indulging in yummy coffee, I have gone without. I woke up this morning and there was finally k-cups in the dispenser! I was overjoyed for about two minutes until I realized that someone had already finished every drop of creamer. So no coffee for me today…yet.

Maybe my nice boyfriend will bring me some..wink wink.

If we were having coffee…

I would tell you that I feel like I have been in a slump. I have been anxious about my future and I just hate that feeling of having nothing to look forward to. Lately I have been running very low on hope for whatever is the next chapter in my life. I am feeling a little better now though. I’m not sure what happened. It’s like I went to the hope station and filled up my tank, but not all the way, I could only afford a half tank of hope this time. But enough to get me somewhere, if you know what I mean.

If we were having coffee…

I would also tell you that I like metaphors. not just because of that clever metaphor that I made up there, but I also like them in books and songs and movies and just in everyday life. It kind of makes life more poetic. More beautiful.

If we were having coffee…

I would ask to taste yours, and then I might say that is too sweet for me. But then again it might be my new favorite thing, thus my reasoning for me asking you.

If we were having coffee…

I would listen to you about all of the wonderful things that are happening to your life and I would secretly be jealous about it. I would never tell you though.